adventure ever after!

This blog is written in 2 parts.
And it's about how cool God is.

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Part 1 – I wrote this back in December, but never posted it.

Lately, what I am going to do after this trip has been crossing my mind a lot. God’s already told me to be all here, and to not worry about that, but still, I can’t help but wonder.
 
And to tell you the truth, I honestly never get much farther than that thought, because I start to freak out.
 
What if God tells me to do something really boring?
 
Ok, now, reading this, I realize how ridiculous it sounds, but in my head, it’s scary.
 
God is God. I have to obey whatever He says to me.
 
So that makes me wonder, what if He tells me to do something super average? Super monotonous? Super boring?
 
My complete and absolute worst fear in the world would be to live the life of a person with a 9-5. Any 9-5. I’m convinced that I would go absolutely insane. It just wouldn't be good. In any way. For anyone.
 
That’s always been a fear of mine. And lately, the more I live the life I’m living, that kind of a life just sounds worse and worse and worse.
 
My life right now is literally one big adventure.
Don’t get me wrong, I do work.
But I have never thought of it as work.
Not once. Because I love it. Because it’s kingdom work.
It’s not a 9-5. It’s 24-7. It’s living life as Jesus’ hands and feet.
It’s constantly being on call for prayer and prophecy and deliverance.
It includes elephant riding and swimming in December and lots and lots of rice.
It’s just so right.
And I can’t imagine ever doing anything else.
 
But in 6 months, I’m gonna have to.
In 6 months, I’m gonna be back in the Unites States.
In 6 months, I’m gonna be surrounded my old family and friends again.
And in 6 months, I’m gonna have to be doing something.
And that is what scares me.
And makes me wonder: What if my life goes from completely exciting to completely boring?
 
What if He tells me to go back to school?
What if He tells me to go back to my old job?
What if He tells me to stay in St. Louis?
What if?
 
But then God reminds me of something.
It doesn’t matter.
He is in charge of my life.
He is in charge of it now.
And He will be in charge of it then.
My God is a wild God.
He is a universal God.
My God is a big, adventurous, outside-of-the-box-God.
He called me onto this trip.
And He’ll call me to where He wants me after it.
And even if that happens to be somewhere that I think, now, would be boring, it will be anything but boring.
 
Because my God is a God of adventure.
My God is a radical God.
My God takes willing people and does crazy stuff with them.
And my God is writing my story.
Therefore, my whole life is already a guaranteed adventure.
 

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Part 2 – Written now.

God is just so good. I realize that more and more each day as He reveals to me how much He knows my heart.
Looking back at this that i wrote just 3 months ago, I laugh. I realize how silly it was to be scared of a boring future. God KNOWS my heart. He wouldn't do that to me! And what's exciting now, is that since I wrote that, He has revealed so much about my future to me! 

He's spoken so much, He's invited me to make the plan with Him, and He's shared with me His ideas. 

This summer, I get to work in a children's home in Miami. If you know me, you know how excited this makes me on SO many levels. God's been telling me, "Miami" for years now. But He's always said, "Not yet." One night in Phuket, I was praying about what's next, and He said, "Miami. This summer." I actually didn't want to believe Him at first. By the summer, I'll have been away from home for 9 months. Can't I just spend a minute at home? 

MIAMI. 
THIS SUMMER.

It was EVERYWHERE.
Literally.
Every person I talked to brought up Miami.
It was written everywhere I looked. 
He wouldn't let me feel any peace about doing anything else.
So I said, "Fine, God. I'll go to Miami this summer."
And then He started revealing the details.

I've known about this children's home for a couple years now. It's been on my heart and mind continually. I kinda had a sense I'd be there in the future…long term. As I looked through the webiste again one day, I knew that was right. And all of a sudden, everything fit together. I knew I was supposed to be a house parent. I also knew I wasn't supposed to do that now. I'm supposed to be an intern now. And that will prepare me for later. 

God's also told me that next year I will be leading mission trips. Leading college students. Like I said, HE KNOWS MY HEART. He shared with me from His point of view, how much that is also going to prepare me for what follows. He's just SO GOOD.

Anyways, last week one day, He told me I needed to get the Miami application in that day.
And that same day, He threw this little one in my path.

(Her shirt. Confirmation?)

So I applied. And I had an interview. And it made me laugh. Because they also knew I'd be there long term. Before I told them. And they told me they had openings for that position now; for me to pray about it. And I just kept giggling. Because God is funny like that.

So, this has turned into a long tangent, but my point is simple: that God is SO GOOD. 
He knows our hearts.
He is going to give us adventure if we want it. 
He is going to use us if we are willing.
And He is going to reveal everything we need to know to us in His perfect timing.
He is going to make us excited about His plan.
God's not boring.
And that's why I'm not scared of the future anymore.
I'm beyond excited to spend this summer in Miami.
I'm beyond excited to lead college kids on mission trips next year.
And I'm beyond excited to see what else He's got in store for me.
[He's told me small parts…and trust me, they're exciting.]

So that's where I'm currently at: loving life here, taking in every second of it, but being excited for what's next too.
OH! And guess what! that includes home. If I'm hearing Him right, I get to be at home next fall for a few months. And the best part: I can genuinely say I'm excited for that. God is good. That's all for now.